Wednesday, December 22, 2010

The Holiday Beast

This is a repost from when I Google'd "Holiday Overeating'.... Everyone is blogging about overeating and how you feel out of control at times. Figured it was worth sharing. It refers to Thanksgiving thru New Years.
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If you know where to sit at the table and what to eat the day before the big feast, you won’t gain weight this weekend.  Susan Roberts on four holiday diet tricks.
For many dieters, the holidays are a time for giving up. Faced with a six-week neverending onslaught of fattening foods, you know you can’t win, so you resign yourself in advance and then let yourself go.
The typical adult gains between five and eight pounds in the short interval between Thanksgiving and New Year’s, the equivalent of eating about 20,000 excess calories, or 550 calories a day beyond what you need to maintain weight. Will you be able to avoid putting on pounds over the next six weeks if you resolve to watch each and every bite? It’s possible, but not likely—unless you know good ways to limit the damage.
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We can't get away from our instinctive eating behaviors, but we can learn to control them. Here are four simple ways to help yourself based on my incredibly effective "I" diet weight-control program:
1. Start Before Thursday Even if you’re not the one cooking, you’re not at the mercy of your holiday host, especially if you pre-game starting a day or two ahead. One foolproof way to prepare for a particular impending feeding frenzy is to add to your regular meals two or three half-cup servings of a high-fiber cereal like Fiber One Original or All Bran Extra Fiber beginning one or even two days before the big meal. Don’t make the mistake of eating light before Thanksgiving to bank calories—that’s exactly what will cause overeating. Instead, give yourself this satiety-boost to gain fullness and control. When dinner is served, you’ll automatically want to eat far less.
2. Micromanage the Table Surreptitiously controlling your food microenvironment when you do sit down to eat makes a huge difference as to how much goes in your mouth. So as you take your seat, bear in mind that short, skinny neighbors will serve themselves smaller portions and tempt you to eat less than tall, overweight, or athletic ones. If you can't sit next to a featherweight, at least keep the high-calorie foods and alcohol moving down the table away from you, making sure it doesn’t end up within reach. Multiple research studies have shown that the proximity of food determines how much you load onto your plate, so even simple steps like this can be a big help.
3. Skip the Boring Stuff Every holiday meal has some high-calorie things you don't particularly care for. By not looking at, smelling, and especially tasting even a single bite of the mundane items, you avoid revving up metabolic hunger signals unnecessarily and can save hundreds of calories. As for work parties and other events where the food is simply all-around poor, eat something satisfying before you go and keep a glass of seltzer in your hand for a zero-calorie event.
4. Recover Control the Very Next Day Yes we have the metabolic effects of feasts like Thanksgiving that make us hungry for another good meal, and then another, but that doesn't mean you’re helpless. The key to nipping negative cycles in the bud is doing recovery activities in the right order. Although cutting out high-calorie treats starting the next day might seem like the right place to start, in fact this superficially easy route frequently leads to failure because you get hungry and then overeat when you get hungry again. The key here, in my clinical experience, is to recover satiety first. Put yourself on a high-fiber regimen the very next morning—high-fiber cereals, legume dishes, and low-carb, high-fiber breads are best—and see how quickly you lose the urge to overeat. With some good satiety under your belt, you are ready to start eating healthy stuff again and will be better able to keep those pounds from sticking around your middle.

Monday, December 20, 2010

Re-Do Week 3

I am on week 3 and I don't think I have truly weighted myself as much as I normally do. It does feel very odd to me not to weight myself every few days. I stepped on the scale last week once. I just have been so busy with errands and shopping I haven't made much time for my usual habits. The hustle and bustle of the holidays I guess. Which means also not that I have been totally bad with eating, I have done pretty good. I don't recall a day I really over ate. Just trying to remember it isn't the amount I can eat - it is the amount of how little I can eat.

I enjoy my hour of cardio each time I go to the gym. I hate it when I am doing it but I am thinking of things that motivate me. One thing I have been doing is choosing a machine next to someone else who is working hard or running fast. It honestly does help push you. If it is just secretly trying to run along side them or just sweat as much as they are. I swear on it!

I still suck at drinking water.... BAD
I haven't logged in continually each day into my food log.... BAD
One hour of cardio 3x's this week.... GOOD
Didn't drink at the holiday party.... GOOD

Speaking of holiday party! I received more comments from two friends that I haven't seen... well should say haven't seen as much as I would like. I don't hang in the same circle of friends as I use to but we used to hang out a lot. Now I see them less than I would like. Anyhow... the first one asked what I have been doing and how great I looked. She stated she didn't notice at first but then she saw me from far away and saw how small I was. She was more caught off guard in a way. I am not sure. She just reacted very excitedly. The other complement came from one of my guy friends. He just casually said that he could tell I have 'slimed down' and he could tell. Plus I looked nice. He was kinda funny about it. I think he was choosing his words carefully. But it was good to hear this coming from a guy since most are not into such details. What is interesting is that I saw both of these people at Halloween time. But did no one notice then? I haven't lost any more weight since then. (Oh god I wish I had)

This whole re-do challenge is less than a success. I have one more week that I told myself I would allot myself. I have had no budge on the scale. Its been more of an awareness for me mentally then. My fill appointment got rescheduled on me. So I don't go in until January 12th!

I just don't see how I can eat like I can, not loose any weight weeks after weeks.... I work out harder and no results... what is a girl to do....

Goal for this week: Vitamins + Water

Weight for today: ?

Merry Christmas followers!

Thursday, December 16, 2010

Extra Dessert Delights Gum - Try It

Wrigley's Extra Dessert Delights Gum

For those who struggle with their sweet tooth just as much as I do... I found this gum at Target last night. It actually is pretty tasty and has enough flavor to really fix your sweet tooth. granted it definitely isn't a nice cold bowl of ice cream but it tastes pretty darn close. I of course got the Mint Chocolate Chip which happens to be my favorite ice cream.

Thanks Wrigley's Inventors. 

Tuesday, December 14, 2010

Re-Do Week 2

Here is a break down of the past Re-Do Challenge that is turning up to be Challenging! It is really helping me though think about eating and making the efforts to work out.  I also have taken more thought/effort in: Where I want to be with my weight + How hard I need to work + Is eating 'this' worth ruining the day + How I feel emotionally and physically.

FOOD:
I have done pretty well with my eating this past week. I limited the quantity of what I ate and tried to avoid carbs. I did have a sweet tooth a few days but didn't have much around me so the moment passed. It felt empowering. I didn't log continuously thru the week in my food log. I am aware of what I eat everyday but didn't make time at the end of the day to do it. I bought Trader Joe's PowerBerries which are dark chocolate and you don't need much to fulfill a sweet tooth. Two or three little bites and you are good to go. Limitations, my dears, right.

DRINK:
I am still not drinking as much water as I should. In fact, I never put my 1 hour reminder timer on once. I have never been a water drinker and I struggle with this with every 'diet' or 'eating right' thru my whole life. I just feel like I have to be thirsty to drink water. But yet, I drink tea, chai, or juice thru the day. Not the best but I am trying. It is th key to help weight loss... you would think I would just do it!

MOVIN':
I missed Spin both days since I hurt my hip, oh I should say over worked it walking last weekend. It has been sore all week. I think I just needed a rest. So I missed spin Tuesday on purpose but wanted to go Thursday. But missed that too since the seminar I went to ran a bit later than I thought. I did still work out those days and did an hour of cardio. But missing spin can be disappointing since it burns a lot of calories and stress. My boyfriend got a new bike which means I get to use his older one. I have a beach cruiser but it doesn't have gears like his older bike. So we are going this weekend to ride a 5 mile loop near his house.

I think I may had been struggling mentally and what not since I started my period. Again, yes... I am every 2 -3 weeks. It is kinda crazy. Before I would go 2 - 3 months but now it is weeks. It is good since my body is reacting and having it makes me feel healthy. But it is a pain in the ass when you are trying to loose weight and the scale keeps jumping up. I have been loosing a lot of hair recently and not sleeping well. I think it might have to do with me not taking my vitamins regularly.

I received the best complement this weekend at a holiday party from an old coworker... "You look so tiny!" as he held my shoulders with both hands to feel how small I was. It made me feel really great. I had a smile ear to ear and kept telling my boyfriend about what that person said. I think I mentioned it 10 times that night. I am still glowing.

Goal for this week: Spin tonight, Bike on Saturday + VITAMINS

Weight for today: 200.6

Monday, December 6, 2010

Re-Do Week 1

Awe I suck at my new challenge. I know what I have to do but I am just not following my new guides I set. Everyday will be a struggle but what I can't get my mind around is my lack of motivation. I know what I need to do, I talk about what I need to do, I see what I need to do.... but why can't I just do it!?! You know that feeling one gets when you are really unhappy about your weight and you want to change, but yet you feel stuck, like you can't... Whelp folks THAT IS ME. I am not in denial one bit. I know when I am eating something unhealthy. I still eat it though. I'm surrounded by so much temptation. IT'S DRIVING ME BONKERS!

Even though I suck at eating the right things since the start of my plan.... I have followed some of it.
What I Completed: 
- I got rid of the ice cream in the fridge
- The chocolate goldfish crackers are gone
- Set the timer to drink more water 2 of the days
- Tuesday: Spin class + 1 hour legs workout
- Thursday: 30min jog + 30min elliptical + 1 hour back/shoulder workout
- Saturday: 40 min walk and jog
- Sunday: 30min jog + 30min stair stepper + 1 hour arm/triceps workout
(That means I did 4xs the cardio than the week prior.)

Now what I need to work on for full week 2:
- No carbs
- No sweets
- Set timer everyday for water intake
- Keep up increased cardio workouts
- Not eat the candy, rice or bread at my boyfriend's house

Now I just need to find that happy place where I am burning the calories and eating the right foods. Then I should see some sort of change.

Goal for this week: Read above

Weight for today: 200.6

P.S. On the bright side I am feeling great because I finally paid off all of my financial debt this past week. AND I am starting to be more creative outside of work by learning more about taking photos. Something I always wanted to do but lacked confidence to do. I have a lighting seminar this week hosted by a pro photographer. I am really excited about that. I also did a night shoot with two other beginner photographers this past weekend. I leave you with two of the shots of Downtown San Diego.... 





Thursday, December 2, 2010

My Re-Do Challenge

If I type this out - I really have to do this! My weight today was 202.2lbs!

(A few Fat photos for motivation)

As a follow up to my complete frustration with not loosing any weight for months on end I am starting a RE-DO CHALLENGE. A time of re-focusing and re-gaining control of my weight.

Thank you to those who had posted advice. I really appreciate it and I looked into each option.

No, I am not going to do the 5-day pouch test. It seems like an okay thing to do but I don't see myself following it. It may work for some but in the end it is being 100 percent totally accountable for what you stick in your mouth. So here it is folks... MY PLAN...ONE MONTH... IT'S GO TIME...

CARDIO:
- Increase my cardio to 1 hour on non-spin days (Thurs, Sunday)
- Do more cardio after spin class (Tuesday)
- Get outside an hike, walk or run (Saturday mornings)

CONSUMPTION:
- Set a timer after my meals for 1 hour, At that time I MUST drink 8ounces of protein water
- Go thru fridge and throw out my pumpkin ice cream and chocolate goldfish snacks (bye bye temptation) 
- No carbs, Protein + veggies only - Log everything in Tap-Tract iphone App
- Be consistent everyday of the week not just weekdays (the weekends I haven't been focused)
- Take vitamins daily

FILL SCHEDULED: Dec 22nd 12pm
TIME FRAME: One Month - All of December

Tuesday, November 30, 2010

Considering a Liquid Diet for 1 Week

I am still lingering around the same weight for months on end....I am fed up, tired of it, frustrated, sad....  

I read about a 5 Day Pouch Test. What the heck is that - I don't have to buy anything to do it. What is the test exactly?

Is it worth doing something along that line or doing strictly liquid proteins?

Anyone have any suggestions?

I don't go in for a fill until the week of Christmas. I really want to be down 10 pounds and get out of this rut! I am struggling and I need to do more than what I am currently doing.

Help :(

Monday, November 29, 2010

I Made It

... Thru thanksgiving that is!
My first year of cooking a turkey day dinner was a success. I take my bow.

The best part was knowing that I made awesome tasting food and every single person at the table loved everything I made. Sometimes it is hard to please everyone but I actually did it. I am very proud of myself. It was my first try at cooking turkey. I totally stressed about making dinner for my boyfriend's family weeks in advance. Normally his brother's girlfriend cooks... but since she doesn't live there anymore it kinda fell into my lap. His mother doesn't like to cook so between 3 sons and myself ... I was the lucky winner. The good thing about that was I got to make what I like and as healthy as I could. For example using low calorie milk, butter and little to no salt. Still managed to make a brined turkey, garlic mashed potatoes, gravy, stuffing, yams and veggies. I enjoyed every bit but since I had cooked all day I really wasn't as hungry as I could of been. Maybe too many taste tests prior. Plus the meal I cooked ended up being an early dinner, then off to my own family's house for another dinner with the works. At that point I just wanted to skip to dessert or just have tea while everyone else ate. Luckily I sat at the smaller table with less people so I didn't get asked why I didn't really eat. This part of my family doesn't know I had banding done. So stating I was full really helps avoid such subjects.

The best part of Thanksgiving is the left overs. I think I have ate t-day for 3 days afterwards. Which isn't the best for a diet but I am over my comfort food fix and onto healthy eating this week.

I also didn't gain any weight this holiday. Sweet! I did go up a bit mid week to 200. Not sure why- maybe my period of salty food intake.  I even made it to spin and the gym by myself last week. I think the excess of sleep I got this past weekend helped burn a lot of calories JK

Hope it was a memorable one for everyone! Now on to Christmas....

Does anyone else feel like they are looking older now that their faces are thinner? I looked at myself in the mirror andI think I am looking a little older now my face is;t as round. Maybe my imagination run a muck!

Goal for this week: Water

Weight for today: 198 lbs.   okay fine... 200.2 But that is what I did weight in last week - every single day

Tuesday, November 23, 2010

Take That Sucka!

Last Year I went to my first college football game. When I was in college, my school didn't have a team. So my boyfriend was so excited for me to go since he used to work for the athletic program while he was in college here is SD and loves football. They gave away a football jersey that stated it was an adult XL. I knew it wouldn't fit and there was no way it was really an XL since it looked like a Medium. I was disappointed I couldn't fit into it plus he kept stating I should just give the shirt away. I never put it on since when I held it up, it just looked way too small. I was sad that I couldn't wear it since I knew my boyfriend really wished I could and kept talking about how cute I would of looked in it. Talk about disappointment.

Well I held onto the jersey and it was time again to go to another football game. Granted I am not a big football person, honestly I don't know much about the game and rules... but I wanted to wear the damn jersey! I hadn't even tried to put it on this whole past year. I not only wore it, I wore it over a tank top, long sleeve shirt and a thick fleece sweater! It felt so damn good. Take that Sucka! Plus my boyfriend thought I looked adorable in it. That is what felt the best.

Goal for this week: Eat small portions for Turkey day. Go to spin tonight.

Weight for today: Next week

Monday, November 15, 2010

Shopping High

I love that I keep reading about people Spinning lately. It is great to see everyone going outside of their comfort zone and trying something new. Even though Spin isn't new to me since I have been going for almost a year... I am just feeling re-charged after my last week of going twice. I hope to do the same this week... WAIT! I WILL do the same this week! (sigh) Seeing how many calories it does burn makes me want to keep it up. Even though I didn't see a pound gone - I am still feeling motivated with it and have to keep going. Thanks for all of your kind words last week.

It had been awhile that I had gone shopping so we set aside time this weekend to go. We hit up Carlsbad Outlet Mall. Its such a nice mall. All the right stores and not overwhelming too many. I might of went a little crazy but I really needed some new stuff. It makes me feel better about myself seeing all the clothes I can now fit into BUT it makes me want to buy everything! I really held back and purchased items I 'loved' versus 'want'. I really wanted to break the bank and BUY BUY BUY! I think I got a new wardrobe from Target, Gap, Roxy and Banana Republic, American Eagle. All within reason with clearance, holiday discounts and in-store sale coupons.

Tell me if I have a problem: flannel pajama bottoms, grey jean pencil skirt, red plaid long sleeve shirt, matching top and bottom purple fleece outfit, black kimono striped shirt, grey v-neck sweater, grey sweater short sleeve, two simple long sleeve shirts, red mini striped shirt, B Makowsky black heels.

The heels are my favorite purchase since I have been searching and searching for black heals that are comfortable and I can actually walk in. I tried to find a photo of them online but I couldn't find any. They are pretty RAD! I love the fact that with weight loss comes balance... LITERALLY!

I am feeling pretty damn good. Larger people are told not to wear stripes - but I look pretty good in stripes so I want everything to have stripes on it now. I have to control myself. Plus I was never a brand type of person since I could only fit into generic brands from Torid. But now I am fitting into brands that I never thought I would be wearing. I feel very much like a girl, okay a woman... dressing age appropriate but fashionable. And this is coming from a person who only use to wear dark colors, jeans and sweatshirts EVERY DAY. I think I have broken that pattern ;-)

Goal for this week: more spin and more water

Weight for today: 199 lbs.

Friday, November 12, 2010

Trying for Results

I spun my ass away this week! I went twice to two spin classes. I was so burnt out after the second class. I went to one on Tuesday which is the one I usually go to. Lately it is with an instructor who I am not to fond of her instruction and how little she pushes her class. Then Wednesday.... I did tell you I was going to finally go to my coworkers' Spin class since she teaches it at the gym near work. I went and she is a little spit fire. She totally raises her voice, listens to fast pace music and takes very little breaks. The endurance in the class is amazing. I loved it. it kicked my ass but I loved it. I sweat so much I was dripping. She told me about a few of her repeat class members that all excel and train professionally for marathons, swim races, triathlons ... some of the women have accomplished a lot of great things in their fitness life. The girl who I sat next to on the bike swam 8 levels in a particular swim race recently and BEAT all the men in the race and placed first! AMAZING! Well guess who kept up with her pace.... ME! I kicked ass in the class and didn't look as if I was suffering like some of the other so-called fit girls. Talk about being motivated from my last post. Whoo hoo Yey me!


I notice a lot of blogs mention their doctors and I was curious how they chose them.  I chose my surgeon because he had a website about his clinic at a well know hospital. Honestly YES I DID!  Plus my insurance had listed him as an option. He is known as the father of laparoscopic gastric bypass: he performed the first laparoscopic gastric bypass in the world as primary surgeon in 1993. This was performed right here in San Diego, California. He is a great doctor and is very helpful.  I just wish he had been more aggressive with my fills, he is mainly a bypass surgeon and very little patients with gastric banding. Maybe that is why he was less aggressive with the fills. I think if I had this restriction sooner, my weight loss would of been more my first year. I am not blaming him at all - I just think being on the same level as the doctor is a must. So looking back and advise for future bandsters is that they need to do the research on the doctor and make sure their skills match your new planned life. This doctor will be your best friend for the following years, not just your surgeon on surgery day. Choose wisely. Do research on the doctor. Find a recommendation. Shop around.


I know I haven't been perfect everyday with what I eat but since my last post I have been REALLY trying to eat less thru the day and stopping myself from bringing more than what I need to eat to work with me. If I bring it - I will eat it. Trying to get away from eating less and making it thru the day. I have been drinking protein waters again in the afternoons. It has given me that little boost to not feel so starved before dinner. If I feel way hungry for dinner I end up eating too much and having a hard time sleeping since I ate too much. The food just sits in my stomach and it is hard for me to sleep after I eat. I am just reminding myself that we all did a whole month of liquids and we were fine - I can do better since I did that before.


I have to be accountable for my journey!
I can not push blame onto the band for the lack of weight loss!
I have to work with the band and eat less and drink more water!


I haven't weighted myself since Monday so maybe next week's main post I will see a little reward on the scale. Fingers crossed. 

Monday, November 8, 2010

Lets Get Motivated

Without inspiration the best powers of the mind remain dormant. There is a fuel in us which needs to be ignited with sparks. - Johann Gottfried Von Herder



Spinning: I have gone back to spin class at least once each week for the last few weeks. It feels so good to burn all of those calories! I didn't realize at a moderate pace you can burn 300-600 calories.   Even thought it wasn't my favorite instructor last week... She does a lot of going back and forth of standing and sitting which hurts my knees. I guess she thinks her class will get bored with longer cycles. Not too sure. Well I shared my frustrations about this instructor with my coworker who also teaches Spin class, she has suggested I go to her class this week. She teaches at a different gym a few times a week. So now I can't get out of it because I have pushed the invite off every single time she wants me to go. I know the class will be great since she is always doing her own music mixes each week - she never has a repeat class. I also hear a lot of positive feed back from her class. She absolutely loves teaching spin. I never work out in front of coworkers so I hope I kick ass as much as she thinks I will. This means I will have to do 2 Spin classes this week and I will forever compare her awesomeness of a spin class to the ones at my gym. Spin will never be the same! Let's go motivation!


Running: I have never been really big on running. I am more of a fast jogger. I also envy those who can run a long distance. Since I haven't been on the treadmill for awhile I went on it and 'tried' to run. My lungs were so tight. I felt so weak but I kept on pushing myself. I wanted to catch up with my boyfriend who was running next to me. I kept checking his distance and ran full speed to get to the same distance. I ended up 1/10 th of a mile behind him. I can easily do 1 mile within 20 minutes of warm up. I guess I have to get back to my Couch to 5k workout. Let's go motivation!


Restriction: I am still feeling restricted after a week. It feels really good to know it is tight again. I just have to be careful about what I am consuming. I have been reading that a lot of people when they loose restriction they tend to make unhealthy food choices since they know it will easily pass thru. Our minds are so wrapped around cheating the band when this happens. I know I do this as well. Like it is okay to still eat it since I know it will be pass. But for me, I have not PB'd before so I need to get away from thinking that the little extra room is linked to bad choices. I have to eat good no matter what, right? The Protein shakes I purchased at Costco the other week and also blogged about have really came in handy. I know it is a liquid that will pass thru but it really keeps me full. It has 30 grams of protein per container and very little sugar. I have drank it a few times when I am really hungry and end up eating a lot less later in the day. Let's go motivation!


I have been on a bean kick too. Gotta get all that protein! Try my 3 Bean salad. It will be great to get you thru the work week. Make it at the beginning of the week and have a bit each day since it makes a large amount.


AM's 3 Bean Salad

1 can of Garbonzo Beans (water no oil)
1 can of Black Eyed Peas (water no oil)
1 can of Pinto Beans (water no oil)
1/2 cup of Red Vinegrette Dressing
parsley chopped (1/2 cup) or dried (1/3 cup)
salt and pepper to taste
garlic powder - few shakes
mix together

Goal for this week: Kick ass in Spin

Weight for today: 198 lbs.

Monday, November 1, 2010

A few little NSV to list

1. My butt fit into the seat for the roller coaster I went on this past weekend. I had so much room that my butt was moving back and forth - even up and down. I screamed like a big baby!

2. My size 14 jeans are getting a little baggy in the butt. My 16s I can't wear anymore. My muffin top in the jeans is definitely going away.

3. I have this Moroccan style shirt that I got a Banana Republic before surgery. It is now so big that the length of it goes way over my butt and isn't tight in the boobs or waist. Might not be able to wear it unless I get it hemmed. 

4. My comfy black cotton dress which was my default dress to 'look nice but cozy' in.... no longer fits. It is the most comfortable dress - its like pajamas. It use to hit right above my knee - now it hangs on me and hits mid shin. I am drowning in it. 

5. I went to a party this weekend and I got so many complements on how I looked, what I was wearing and how nice my hair looked. Everyone had something nice to say. It is such an odd feeling just to say "thank you" without having to explain or deny the complement.

6. I only ate two pieces of Halloween candy and didn't want any more.

7. When I was a child my grandmother gave me jewelry as gifts growing up. I haven't worn any of it maybe since high school since none of it fit as I got older. I am wearing one of the rings today. 

8. There was a heavy set woman in front of my in line for a ride, we had to squeeze in between a thinner area and between decorations, she barely fit... and I walked thru with no problem - not even touching the sides or having to walk thru sideways. It is amazing to realize the perspective we have as fat versus thin(ner).

9. I am almost done paying off a credit card since I have more money instead of spending it on food everyday. Its a big deal to not have any pending credit built up.

10. Since my fill last week - I actually feel full thru the whole day. Maybe this is my special spot I have been longing for? I am very much enjoying it. It feels like a sense of power and control.


Goal for this week: I missed the spin classes last week - so I have to go this week for sure.

Weight for today: 198

Friday, October 29, 2010

30grams of Protein

Yep you read that right! On a quest to rid my habit of Starbucks, I went to Costco last night and purchased a few new items to help me on my new goal. They typical surplus of great things because I love Costco so much, but one I wanted to share with everyone since it is new to me.


Premier Nutrition High Protein Shakes
Nutrition Details:
1 serving is a container (11 fl. oz.)
Calories 160
Sugars 1g
Total Carb 5g
Protein 30g

Costco sells it for about $25.00 per case
Milk and Whey Protein
Serve cold

... my boss actually recommended it to me. He is loving it. I figured I would try it. So I bought a bulk box of it and today is my first try. Can you believe it has 30grams of protein in one container! That is one serving of 30grams.Wholly Protein! That is amazing. It even tastes great too. I am not even half way thru and I am feeling semi full. I really think that this new shake could really give me that extra push that I need to get me thru my day and down a few pounds.

Thursday, October 28, 2010

Now What - 1 year and 1 week

I am officially working on year 2 now, no more 1 year mark to look forward too. I am past it and moving on with life. I have to. Today I stepped on the scale at my house and it still said 200.1. Dammit! And I got dressed and headed to the 1 year check up with my surgeon. I wasn't sure if he would be disappointed I was still in the 200s or if I would get a 'little talk' about 'rights and wrongs'. What was I thinking! My surgeon is the nicest man. He would never do such a thing. He has such grace and care with every word that comes out of his mouth. And a NP that is his partner in support. She reminds us of the day to day and motivation to keep working at the successes. Staying healthy and making the right choices, to not focus so much on the number but how I feel in my clothes. I always feel recharged after a visit with them. Granted I have got a fill every time I have been there. But it also is a little mental slap on the arse to keep working hard. When the NP weighted me I was 198! Love it!

With that said I did get a little fill since I don't feel as restricted as I did 6 weeks ago when I had my last appointment. I think it will be just what I need on this guessing game of finding the right restriction.

"Remember dense proteins and no liquid calories" he says.

In my head I am thinking, "I have to break my addiction to Starbucks since I have been going there a bit more lately. I hate how it is so close to my office." And what did I do when I got out of the appointment? Yep, I went and picked up a soy chai. EVIL it tell you just EVIL.

Here are my stats from the Tanita Body Composition Analyzer that were taken 1 year ago and today. Pretty interesting comparison.
OCT 2009 (the week before surgery)
Weight: 227.0lbs
BMI: 39.6
BMR 7518 kJ - 1797kcal
Impedance: 519
Fat %: 49.9%
Fat Mass: 113.5lbs
FFM: 113.5lbs
TBW: 83lbs


OCT 2010 (the year mark)
Weight: 198.0lbs
BMI: 35.1
BMR 6960 kJ - 1664kcal
Impedance: 451
Fat %: 42.8%
Fat Mass: 84.5lbs
FFM: 113.5lbs
TBW: 83lbs


Something that motivates you is seeing your own ass look so small. I LOOK NORMAL- WOW!

Goal for this week: Steer clear of the evil Starbucks

Weight for today: 198

Friday, October 22, 2010

1 YEAR

I have been looking forward to this post since day one. I wondered where I'd be in my life a year after gastric banding. Let's just say it's way better that I could of imagined feeling. Its taken me a few days to gather what I wanted to write.

I am here to Oct 19th 2010, and I was out of words to say. Me, speechless - It does happen. How can that be, you say when I was so anxious to get here. I can't tell you why exactly ... maybe because I am back in the 200's this week after finally getting to 198.6 after many months of struggle. I am disappointed I am not where I want to be with my weight. 25 pounds came off pretty easy - I barely had to try or think much about it. The last 5 pounds have taken like 5 months or longer. I have had multiple fills, never PB'd, been up and down in my restriction, I exercise 3-4 times a week for 2 hours each time. Not really sure how to wrap all of my feelings about the last few months of struggling loosing weight, but I can tell you is how this past year has drastically changed who I am as a girlfriend, sister, daughter and friend.

I am a happier person. I smile way more, I have emotions I never knew I would feel wit my hormone levels back on track. I am not on any medication for high blood pressure, birth control to make myself have my periods, high cholesterol, migraines are gone! I have been better with my finances. I couldn't ever figure out why I lived pay check to paycheck when I was making more money than I have in the past. I ate out for breakfast, lunch and dinner majority of the week. I was eating myself into debt. How freaking crazy is that? Now I treat myself to eating out instead of making it a habit of day to day life. I could tell you what napkin went with what restaurant at the quickest glance - because that is how much I ate out. I also hid how much I ate and where I ate. I would buy a combo meal and add additional items to it. I ate enough for 2 or 3 people - just for lunch. I could of told you who worked the night shift at the drive thru of Jack In The Box. I was killing myself inside and with my own money. I was a sad person on the inside even though there was no real reason why I should be upset. I just got used to being fat and unhealthy.

Since a year ago this week, I have come so far and my journey isn't over yet. I still have weight to loose and maintain for the rest of my life. I am banded for life. This is who I am today and beyond. I don't think I have cheated or taken the easy was with my weight loss by having a band. I don't even think if I didn't have gastric bypass instead. I knew in the beginning that banding was the way for me to go. I knew it would take longer to loose weight, but knowing that there were more benefits to it for my lifestyle - it was right for me. Sometimes I think I am crazy because I have something in my stomach placed there to help me loose weight. That people loose weight every day - but for me, it never stayed away. I would always gain it back and more. Even though my weight loss has been slow- I have maintained. I haven't given up even going to the gym. It's part of who I am today.

I am most thankful this past year because I have really experienced who my friends are and who is there for me no matter what. They may think I was crazy or didn't agree with my choice... but they have stuck with me and I am forever grateful for the support that each person has given me. My parents have been the biggest supporters in all of this - from caring for me last year in the hospital and weeks following - not forcing me to eat with them and allowing me to do my own thing without judgement. My boyfriend I am also grateful for. He has been very supportive with working out. When I am not so motivated he pushes me, he motivates me just by telling me how nice I look which makes me feel like the most beautiful person to him. He wants me to be healthy for 'us' so we can live healthy and happy together. I am still working on him about eating out less. That is a work in progress which I think once our living situation changes it will work in my favor. I have slowly started to bring meals to cook for us on the weekends to his house. I am enjoying cooking and he is enjoying eating it. So with more baby steps we will get there.

This year is the first of many to come. It seems like forever but its just the beginning. So far, I have lost 32 pounds and I am a size 14 from size 22.

I don't regret anything that has happened this past year. It was a year of self discovery. I've been searching my whole life for me and I only have seen glimpses of who I am to become. I am excited to meet this person and I know that this next year will be totally unexpected but a great one indeed.

Thank you for reading along.

Weight for today: 200.2 lbs.

Monday, October 11, 2010

Weight Loss Motivation

Just to keep up with my motivation, I Googled "weight loss motivation" for my post today. Here is what I reminded myself of today. In keeping up with my Onederland I have to keep remembering I am not out of the woods just yet. I am just barely into my 100s and if I get lazy I can be right back into the 2s. I really think spin class helped me this past week. I gotta get back into spin each week like I was before summer started. I really like it plus it makes any stress go away because you really have to push yourself. Nothing else matters when you are in that class and the instructor keeps you motivated. Just what I need... a little extra push. (or kick- which ever you would prefer).
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Weight Loss 101
Sometimes we start losing weight, but we never finish. We ditch another diet. We throw in the towel on our exercise efforts. Maybe it's from outside pressure; sometimes we aren't ready to lose weight. Whatever the cause, it is not at all uncommon. That doesn't mean you're destined for failure. Even if you've started and stopped 100 times before, this time doesn't have to end the same way. By putting some important skills to use, you will find it a little easier to stick to your weight loss efforts than if you rely on sheer will alone.


Skill One: Reward Yourself
One of the best ways to stay motivated throughout your weight loss journey is to reward yourself with non-food rewards that you will look forward to and enjoy. It can be something tangible (a new book) or something intangible (no less important), such as a lazy Saturday of watching movies in bed.


By marking a goal -- say, each five pound loss -- you will begin to correlate reaching your goals with a pleasurable experience. When simply seeing the scale numbers change loses its "buzz," that special treat will keep you going.


Skill Two: Track Your Progress and Portions
Whether you keep a spreadsheet on your computer or simply jot down your stats in a notebook, keeping an eye on your progress will keep you motivated. You can track your weight, measurements, or BMI -- it is up to you. By looking back at how far you've come, you're less likely to revert to old habits.


Additionally, if you keep careful records, you will be able to catch slip-ups in your calorie counting or exercise habits that, left unchecked, could cause a major plateau or weight gain.


Careful record-keeping includes closely monitoring portion sizes -- what many say is the most important long-term weight management key. Over-doing portions of even healthier foods can mean the difference between long-term weight loss success and eventual failure. Keeping a food diary is the best way to keep on top of what you're eating.


Skill Three: Master Emotional Eating
To achieve long-term weight loss success, you will have to come face-to-face with anyemotional eating habits by asking some important questions: Do you overeat when you're angry? Do you splurge on an extra serving of dessert when you're feeling frustrated?


Being honest with yourself is the only way to get the true measure of your emotional eating triggers. Without facing them, you will always be less likely to be in control of your weight.


Skill Four: Prepare for the Pushers
There will always be people who encourage you to go off your diet "just this once." That's not really a problem until "this once" becomes time and time again. If every time you see someone you go off the rails at their suggestion, it may mean you need to distance yourself or have a serious talk with about your weight loss efforts.


Peer pressure doesn't end when you get older; it's ever-present if your friends and family correlate enjoying time with you to eating with you. Plan non-food activities with loved ones and work hard to resist temptation when you're in an environment where food is part of the festivities.


Skill Five: Remember, It's About Health, Too
In a Web poll, 65% of our site's visitors said they were losing weight for appearance's sake; only 35% said they were doing it for their health. To be honest, that surprised me quite a bit, considering how great an impact weight loss has on health and overall quality of life.


The thing is, your slimmer self will become your norm. The compliments about your weight loss will die down. Once you've worn that "new and improved" size for a while, the thrill of trying on the clothes in your new wardrobe will start to fade. Shopping outside a plus size store, if you're doing so for the first time, will be exciting only for so long (or until your credit cards are maxed out). So, if you ask me, it's not all about looks.


When motivation to stick to your new eating and exercise habits wanes, and a quick glance in the mirror doesn't do the trick, considering the many health risks of obesity probably will get you going. By maintaining a healthier weight, you are more likely to live a longer life with fewer medical problems. Wearing a smaller size is just the icing on the cake; a happier, healthier life is the ultimate reward.


- about.com
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One of the hard parts of my journey is that I don't know anyone in person that has the band. I have the internet but no real life person. I know it isn't uncommon of a thing to be banded because friends or friends have them. But no direct friends of mine do. Do you feel as if surrounding yourself with others will help or make you compare yourself more? Cause you know me, I am always comparing my weight loss to the bloggers and getting irritated that I am not as down as they are. 

One of the great things about loosing a few pounds again is being able to take off a few more rings on my countdown chain. Any little bit helps.

Goal for this week: Spin class!

Weight for today: 198

Thursday, October 7, 2010

I am back!

Results - FINALLY!

Monday, October 4, 2010

Cruise Photos

In a few weeks I hit my 1 year.... so here are some photos from the cruise as an update.
Full Shot 
(This is rare because I never wear shorts with tennis shoes)


Formal Dinner
(And no I normally don't consider Marti Gras beads as a formal attire)

 Sea Day with Dangerous Mixes
(When my family who doesn't know I had Banding done showed up pool side  - I put my shirt on to hide my 2 inch tummy scar - which is also cropped out of this photo)

 Wine Tasting (That I didn't even taste at)

The best part of the trip... ZIP LINING!
(Lucky me - the heavier you are the faster you go)

Misconceptions

As I have stated before about the lack of weight loss these past months I went on a little search to find out how I can adjust my lifestyle. I don't feel like I am limited myself to what I eat. I read about eating less, drinking more thru the day, not drinking around meal times... things I am totally guilty of even if I hate to admit it. I have to take a few steps back and revert to my thoughts I had almost one year ago. I just wish I had that feeling when I first ate a bowl of soup after my month long liquid diet... I felt satisfaction - I felt full - I felt like I couldn't of ate anymore. Now today, I have just been eating way to much and not limiting myself to what goes into my mouth. I eat whatever looks good and that includes CARBS and SWEETS. I hate the fact that I finally got to 199 and now I am back up a few pounds. It took me so long to get to that number and now I have to push re-start.

One of the articles that I was reading stuck in my head and I wanted to re-post it for everyone to read. It just breaks down the simple facts and some things I have been feeling about my struggles. 

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"As weight loss surgery becomes an increasingly popular treatment for morbid obesity misconceptions abound. Patients who undergo gastric bypass or gastric banding surgeries are often depressed and disappointed after surgery because they believed the popular misconceptions.
Some common misconceptions about WLS: 
  • Surgery brings joy and boundless energy instantaneously
  • Laparoscopic surgery is painless
  • WLS is an easy fix and permanent fix to obesity
  • WLS guarantees happiness
  • Others will support the WLS decision
  • After reaching goal weight patients can go back to normal
Because patients read about the joy and boundless energy enjoyed by others after surgery they assume these feelings occur immediately. Joy is felt after massive weight loss, not after surgery. In fact, for many patients the first six weeks out of surgery are emotionally draining as they grieve for food and feel fatigued and disoriented.
We read the laparoscopic technique used for 85 percent of all WLS is minimally invasive requiring little recovery time. In truth this technique bruises the intestines, liver and ribs. The surgery is painful and recovery is not as rapid as most patients expect. Patients express feelings of failure when they are sore and exhausted from surgery.
For most patients weight loss happens quickly and easily. True to dieting tradition when patients reach goal weight they tend to go back to "normal" disregarding the high-protein low-volume diet. Weight gain results. Unless patients follow the strict WLS rules daily they regain weight.
WLS does not guarantee happiness. In fact, patients commonly describe feelings of anger, bitterness, resentment, panic and self-loathing as they lose weight. They also express happiness, satisfaction, pleasure, delight and self-love. The pendulum of emotions swings wide.
Having WLS exposes one to attacks from others who feel entitled to criticize the gluttonous sloth that could not lose weight by eating less and exercising more. Not all people, including spouses, siblings, parents and friends will support the decision for WLS.
WLS is a lifetime commitment to an extremely restrictive lifestyle that if used successfully will enable a former morbidly obese person to maintain a healthy weight and diminish the co-morbidities of obesity. It should never be considered the "easy way out" or a "quick fix." It is a lifetime commitment with no returning to normal."
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Oh I wish it was as easy at it sounds. But banding isn't a quick fix. We all still struggle with our life long patterns and habits. I have new habits now but some days are harder than others. I lost weight every week and then BOOM nada, zero, no movement at all. What does a girl have to do to get re-charged? Do I need to go back onto my liquid diet? Set an alarm to remind myself its been 1 hour after I last ate so I don't drink until then? What has helped you re-charge yourselves!

I think the hardest part of not continually loosing weight is that the people who do know I was banded like to monitor me way too much and it forms judgement. They ask how much weight I have lost recently? ... Why I am still the same as months ago?... Why haven't I continued to loose?.... Why don't I get it tightened?... Aren't you only able to eat a cup of food at a time?

Trust me - I am askin' myself the same damn thing, folks!

Goal for this week: -RESTART-

Weight for today: 200.0 lbs.

Tuesday, September 28, 2010

Cruise Re-Cap

Had a good time, but I won't do a cruise again. It was just such an odd feeling not being able to go any where I wanted. I still feel like I am rocking back and forth from being at sea. If you like your trips to be planned for you - then it is a perfect thing for yah. We went from Long Beach > Catalina > Ensenada > back to Catalina but not dock > Long Beach.

I loved Catalina. I loved Zip Lining. I loved hanging with my mom. I loved laying out on the day at Sea. Oh, I also loved the Chocolate Melting Cake.

The first day I ate way too much and couldn't sleep. So I took it easy with what I ate the rest of the trip. I had a small breakfast and skipped lunch the rest of the week. I never made it to the gym while on the boat. I did manage to walk the track one day.

I weighed myself yesterday and I only gained 2 pounds! THANK GOD! Thank god, it wasn't more. For not exercising and drinking pina coladas and eating high calorie meals.... I am surprised I didn't gain more. Now back to my routine of eating healthy, small portions and working out. time to eat like a thin person :-)

Goal for this week: GYM GYM GYM

Weight for today: 201.4

Saturday, September 18, 2010

11 Months

Wholly shit! Has it really been this long since I was banded? One more month and it will be a YEAR! Wow How time flies by. As of today, at my 11 month date, five new and exciting things are:


1. Under 200 - not by much but it does look like I am in ONE-DER-LAND
2. In a size 14 designer Jeans
3. Keeping up with my working out even with working long hours
4. Feeling restricted (finally)
5. Had my period after many months of not having it


I really feel like I am kicked back into gear and really trying to make better choices. I have felt in a slump and struggling. Not seeing any loss other than in inches. This is very frustrating but one must focus on moving forward and no regrets. 


A list of things I want to work on for the next month:


1. Vitamins
2. Going back to spin class
3. Drinking more water


Off to my cruise for one week - hoping to get a lot of relaxation and feel refreshed when I return. Maybe even a little tan.


"Goals are the fuel in the furnace of achievement."


Weight for today: 199

Friday, September 17, 2010

Today Is A Good, Good Day

Today there are too many words that can explain how I feel.... 199.6!!!

Monday, September 13, 2010

Karma is a Bitch

I speak from experience on this one because last night I had a sweet tooth after dinner. I knew I didn't have much of a selection. I even though I had just ate my dinner I reached for some soy milk and some chocolate syrup.

One, I drank right after eating which I shouldn't of done.
Two, it was chocolate syrup.

I couldn't remember the last time I had even ate any of that syrup - or how long it had been in the fridge. Why was it still there? Anyhow, I mixed the two and enjoy a cold chocolate milk. It hit the spot. Well in the middle of the night I woke up in hives, burning and itching! That choloate syrup was the only new thing I ate in the last 24 hours. So I went to check out the bottle... EXPIRED... and not just by a bit... it was by YEARS! I don't even want to tell you how long, lets just say loooong ago it should of been thrown away.

Talk about some serious instant Karma. Damn, that band sure knows how to teach me a lesson. Even worse... what is in chocolate syrup anyhow.... check this out!

I Love Shopping

The worst part of getting banded is the LOVE I have for shopping now. I used to hate shopping because I could only shop within certain stores. It was a very frustrating and limited. But now I have such a selection in most stores, that I just want to buy stuff just because it fits. This can be so BAD! So now I have to narrow down what I want and what I need.

I have recently purchased three amazing and well fitting dresses. (Banana Republic and Shabby Apple) I think that these will last me awhile since they can be worn even if I loose more weight. The way these dresses fit are perfect now but can only get better even at 10 pounds less. I purposely bought smaller sizes but surprisingly they fit just great. I guess I under estimated how small I am. One of the dresses is even a size 12! I can't remember the last time I wore anything close to a 12. This dress is the wrap around black dress similar to the one below. It looks more Mad Men-Retro than this photo. (I love Retro and Rock-a-Billie) I am wearing it today.



I just went today to finally take in my three pairs of pants to be tailored. They are all size 14's. I will get them back at the end of the week... just in time for my cruise. I also got a cute grey short sleeve with tie jacket - size large ... and a dark purple cotton sweater - size Large... perfect for fall! (Maybe my boobs will get smaller so I can fit into a Medium one day!)

I am very excited to go on my cruise. I have never been on one before. Kinda of nervous to be on a huge boat in the middle of the ocean but more nervous to be with my family who do not know I have been banded. For some reason, one of them found out I was in the hospital last year but not sure what for. I a sure it will be brought up sometime during this week. If so I am not sure what to say... I did have ammonia that week so I guess I will just say that. It honestly isn't any of their business. I am also nervous b/c I have a small scar on my stomach and plan to wear my bathing suit - which means my scar might be seen. It is pretty light and small... but you never know. The last and final reason I am nervous... What do I eat on a cruise ship where I can still indulge but not gain any weight? Anyone who I have ever talked to that has gone on a cruise states they ate the whole time and gained 7 pounds! I don't think zip lining and doing a wine tour will keep me the same weight. Maybe I might have to explore the gym on the ship.

Have fun in Chicago you B.O.O.B.S. ladies!

Goals for this week: Be good on the cruise

Weight for today: 200 (why there you are, I have missed you two hundie)