Social Drinking & Eating

I seem to be moving  between a 2-3 pound gain/loss the past few weeks. It goes down a few pounds and I feel right on track - then the next day it is back up 1 - 2- 3 pounds and then I am just not happy.

I feel really great about my progress during the week days. I feel in a schedule and routine that I like. I have 1 - 2 shakes a day as meal replacements. I eat fruit and try to eat a protein dinner. Then on the weekends I don't have that schedule at all. I do eat a breakfast, a shake then just have a dinner. I sleep in later so I don't feel the need to eat a lunch.

I need to find that right balance. Some days I have it. Then some days I don't. Being conscious of this everyday is very hard. It comes a lot more natural than it did at first. It became easier and the weight just came off so easy. Now, one and a half years later I still struggle with this. I am looking for an easy fix to keep moving forward but I feel there is this wall that I just keep tying to get over, I keep struggling, I keep falling, but yet I feel like I am hitting the wall each time... over and over... It makes me so mad at myself that I haven't really gone down much. Not sure why it isn't sinking in my head or in my routine. Each day is different and how I feel about myself.

Social eating is always a hard one. I try to make it so it isn't noticeable that I am eating less than everyone. But yet someone always mentions that I am not eating very much or why I am not eating. It is hard being out and not really drinking with my friends. I used to feel very comfortable drinking a few beers- knowing my limits - then driving home after sobering up. Now it takes me a long time to feel sober to drive. So I prefer to not even drink at all. I like to say in certain circumstances that I am the designated driver. 85% of the time it is true. But before I would have one beer and be in the mix and having fun. There is this urge to still have a drink in my hand. This weekend I discovered San Pellegrino Aranciata Orange Soda. It could be a nice alternative to typical soda if one hard that urge. I poured it into a cup so it looked like I had a mixed drink. It seemed to work.

Here is the nutritional information...

I ate so many appetizers at a party this weekend that I didn't feel hungry to even eat my dinner. Even though I had stood in line to put food on my plate, put enough on my plate to fill it up, then sat down and didn't touch it. I felt bad waisting the food but I felt powerful to know when to stop. It was definitely a NSV- Me against food. I know I need to find that limit for social events because I still love to hang out and go do dinners with friends. I don't want to be a social outcast and loose those connections. Just need to keep making mental notes of it to keep me focused in front of temptations.

And yes, I am still working on the no-carb rule. Been a little 'flexible' last week. But refocusing and going to do it. Also contemplating a 3 day cleanse.

Goal this week: FOCUS

Weight for today: 199.2