I am feeling semi frustrated since I am taking the effort to not over eat and really pay attention to my hunger, but yet I am still at 202 for a couple of weeks now. Grumble, grumble, Grumble.... What is a girl to do. Granted I have to continually hike my pants up since they are falling off of me now - you can only shrink jeans to a point in the dryer as I have learned... And I received the BEST complement from one of my close friends who I haven't seen in a month... "Whoa April, girl, yer Boobs look so small!" (I loved it)
I notice these differences in my body but yet not the scale. I feel like I could be less than what I weigh from the week before based upon these clothes but the flippin' scale is stuck on 202!
I had an emotional cry for about 5 minutes this weekend... for no reason... my poor boyfriend probably wonders if I am crazy... I feel hormonal a lot now... it comes and goes in waves thru the month. My sensitivity level is really high. I know it has to be my hormone levels now that my body is starting to get back on track. I am just not use to having these feelings. I was told that after surgery your hormone levels change and your sex drive increases along with fertility... totally true! I agree! Be warned :-)
Have a great weekend in those Bikinis Ladies!
Goal for this week: Keep on Truckin'
Weight for today: 202
Tuesday, May 25, 2010
Wednesday, May 19, 2010
7 Months
I saved my Monday blog post to write today at my 7 month Bandaversary date. It really doesn't seem that long ago but time does fly by. No photos until 9 months.
The past few weeks I have been doing a liquid diet. I rated myself last week at an 80%, this past week I would say I did much better at about 90%. I eat more solids though but it has really helped me. It isn't completely liquids, so forgive me if I have made you seem as if I was going crazy and trying to go against my band. I have been doing protein shakes in the mornings, some days I have a shake for lunch too, but most of the time now I don't because I don't like the mix just with water, I prefer Soy milk. If I don't have a shake; I now have Greek yogurt, cottage cheese, beef jerky, an apple, sting cheese, or some sort of other small item to hold me to dinner. I have been drinking a lot of vitamin waters in the mid afternoon. Either the ones from Trader Joe's or Vitawater brand. I try to get the ones that are the light version to avoid the extra calories. Doing the new so-called liquid diet has really helped me regain some restriction. Plus pay attention to my hunger.
For dinner I have been revolving my meal around a protein. I do my best with this by having something like scallops, meat balls, turkey meat, tuna or chicken burger (no bun). And of course with a veggie too. I have been really bad with eating sweets. I know it is all mental since I am normally not hungry when I reach for something bad. As of today there is nothing in my fridge that can temp me. So I will be good for a bit longer.
I have switched up my workout some and I know it is making a difference. My pants are fallin' off of me. I am slowly losing pounds but inches are decreasing much quicker. I think the new work outs have helped. This weekend I tried a crazy ass routine that is cardio and toning in one. Check it out.. it seems pretty harmless but I sweat like no other! Squat Thrusts - damn you!
http://exercise.about.com/library/blcardiostrengthcircuit2.htm
Try it - I dare you :-)
Goals for this week: STILL ONEDERLAND! No secret sweet treats! Go to Spin class Tuesday and Thursday, walk at the bay/beach on Wednesdays.
Weight for today: 202
The past few weeks I have been doing a liquid diet. I rated myself last week at an 80%, this past week I would say I did much better at about 90%. I eat more solids though but it has really helped me. It isn't completely liquids, so forgive me if I have made you seem as if I was going crazy and trying to go against my band. I have been doing protein shakes in the mornings, some days I have a shake for lunch too, but most of the time now I don't because I don't like the mix just with water, I prefer Soy milk. If I don't have a shake; I now have Greek yogurt, cottage cheese, beef jerky, an apple, sting cheese, or some sort of other small item to hold me to dinner. I have been drinking a lot of vitamin waters in the mid afternoon. Either the ones from Trader Joe's or Vitawater brand. I try to get the ones that are the light version to avoid the extra calories. Doing the new so-called liquid diet has really helped me regain some restriction. Plus pay attention to my hunger.
For dinner I have been revolving my meal around a protein. I do my best with this by having something like scallops, meat balls, turkey meat, tuna or chicken burger (no bun). And of course with a veggie too. I have been really bad with eating sweets. I know it is all mental since I am normally not hungry when I reach for something bad. As of today there is nothing in my fridge that can temp me. So I will be good for a bit longer.
I have switched up my workout some and I know it is making a difference. My pants are fallin' off of me. I am slowly losing pounds but inches are decreasing much quicker. I think the new work outs have helped. This weekend I tried a crazy ass routine that is cardio and toning in one. Check it out.. it seems pretty harmless but I sweat like no other! Squat Thrusts - damn you!
http://exercise.about.com/library/blcardiostrengthcircuit2.htm
Try it - I dare you :-)
Goals for this week: STILL ONEDERLAND! No secret sweet treats! Go to Spin class Tuesday and Thursday, walk at the bay/beach on Wednesdays.
Weight for today: 202
Wednesday, May 12, 2010
New Motivation
My ass looks like that right?
Granted I thought I could fit into these when I picked these up at Target this weekend. Size XL. So cute! I didn't try them on prior to buying. They do fit, but they are a little snug so it makes my chub on my sides stick out like a muffin top. I could return them but I think I will hold onto them as my new motivation. I am going to hang them on a hanger to view everyday. I know I can't wear them in public BUT maybe when I go on my cruise in September.
(I just realized that it is the same time as the BOOBS events. Dang, I so wanted to go too! Hope you ladies have tons of fun.)
130 Days till Cruise! Fingers crossed. X
Monday, May 10, 2010
Gotta get to Onederland!
My first week of liquids went okay. I wouldn't say that I was perfect the whole time, but I did really and honestly try to eat better... Until this weekend. Mid week I had lost two pounds (woo hoo, GREAT) but didn't weigh myself for the rest of the week until this morning for my weekly weigh-in. I gained one pound from the two I lost. Um okay that is alright I guess. It was a sad morning but I know what my issue is with last week!?!
I am great while at work, I am in my controlled environment, I don't really take any time for a lunch and eat what I bring. Last week was protein shakes for breakfast and lunch. I had two scoops of protein mix in my breakfast shake to help me thru the day more. It seems to work. If I could go thru the whole day without a dinner I would of, but I went home to eat a dinner. I made somewhat of an effort to eat a good meal. Aside from a few sweet treats thru the week... I would say I did an 80%.
I would say that the way I eat today from when i was first banded is a lot more. I think I am being more lenient with what I put in my mouth versus being so strict upon my self as I once was. Maybe that is because I don't really feel much restriction compared to then. I feel like I am struggling with eating the right foods.
As for the weekend it was a different story. The two pounds must of been to my head and I must of thought I was skinny... but having a mother's day dinner, then popcorn at the movies, ice cream before bed... then eating out for dinner on Sunday followed by more ice cream... well that is the reason for the one pound gain.
It is like I want to be less than 200 pounds so bad, but I am not working as hard as I should (and know I am capable of). I lived, I learned, I am now in a new week... Gotta get to Onederland!
Goal for this week: Continue liquids thru the WHOLE week
Weight for today: 202
I am great while at work, I am in my controlled environment, I don't really take any time for a lunch and eat what I bring. Last week was protein shakes for breakfast and lunch. I had two scoops of protein mix in my breakfast shake to help me thru the day more. It seems to work. If I could go thru the whole day without a dinner I would of, but I went home to eat a dinner. I made somewhat of an effort to eat a good meal. Aside from a few sweet treats thru the week... I would say I did an 80%.
I would say that the way I eat today from when i was first banded is a lot more. I think I am being more lenient with what I put in my mouth versus being so strict upon my self as I once was. Maybe that is because I don't really feel much restriction compared to then. I feel like I am struggling with eating the right foods.
As for the weekend it was a different story. The two pounds must of been to my head and I must of thought I was skinny... but having a mother's day dinner, then popcorn at the movies, ice cream before bed... then eating out for dinner on Sunday followed by more ice cream... well that is the reason for the one pound gain.
It is like I want to be less than 200 pounds so bad, but I am not working as hard as I should (and know I am capable of). I lived, I learned, I am now in a new week... Gotta get to Onederland!
Goal for this week: Continue liquids thru the WHOLE week
Weight for today: 202
Monday, May 3, 2010
Back on Liquids
... Well until I get a jump start.
Today is my first day back on liquids since I have been eating poorly these past few weeks. I really need to kick my butt in gear and focus. I figure I will do a few days of liquids and see how long I can go until the weekend. I need to do something. I have to be more motivated and set some goals that I need to be more serious about. I have the working out part down, I just need the calorie intake to be fixed. Carbs and sweets don't fit into this goal. I have been feeling un-motivated the past few weeks, things have been a bit fuzzy. I think the weight loss had gone to my head, then I realized even though people have been noticing more and complementing me, I am really not focusing. I am no where near my set goal and being 6 months out and only down less than 30lbs is not want I want.
Help me to be strong and disciplined!
Maybe I was feeling in a funk because of my period. Not too sure. But whatever it was only spotting for 8 whole days and not really having a period told me that my body is not quite there yet. Gotta stick to my routine, protein waters and staying busy.
Again... Help me to be strong and disciplined!
Goal for this week: Liquids
Weight for today: Kickin' it at 203 still
Today is my first day back on liquids since I have been eating poorly these past few weeks. I really need to kick my butt in gear and focus. I figure I will do a few days of liquids and see how long I can go until the weekend. I need to do something. I have to be more motivated and set some goals that I need to be more serious about. I have the working out part down, I just need the calorie intake to be fixed. Carbs and sweets don't fit into this goal. I have been feeling un-motivated the past few weeks, things have been a bit fuzzy. I think the weight loss had gone to my head, then I realized even though people have been noticing more and complementing me, I am really not focusing. I am no where near my set goal and being 6 months out and only down less than 30lbs is not want I want.
Help me to be strong and disciplined!
Maybe I was feeling in a funk because of my period. Not too sure. But whatever it was only spotting for 8 whole days and not really having a period told me that my body is not quite there yet. Gotta stick to my routine, protein waters and staying busy.
Again... Help me to be strong and disciplined!
Goal for this week: Liquids
Weight for today: Kickin' it at 203 still
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