So after last week's weight-in being up at 206, this week I have faced the facts that I did gain and focused on how to fix it. Everyday I weighted myself, obsessively - yes - I know! I just couldn't believe what I was seeing. I hated the scale everyday but prayed to it just to go down. Chanting in my head when I stepped on. Each day it went down ounces and ounces... until today when it stated 203. I will take it! I know it is only one pound more than what I wanted to be back on track, but it is what it is, right? So April 5th 2010 I weight 203. Back on track I go... to keep on trucking.
Last week I did all cardio, no weights. I went to my first spin class. And it isn't as hard as it looks. But I also don't think I would of done it if I hadn't been doing a half an hour on the spin bike myself. It gave me enough courage to do it on my own. Plus going to the yoga class - even though the instructor wasn't there, it made me feel less intimidated for the next time. I think just getting over that fear of not being able to keep up or I am the biggest one in the class is ALL MENTAL. Who cares, at least you are there and doing something about it!!! Facing the demon of failure. I also realized that I am more likely to push myself if others are around. Pulling that energy from others and using it to my benefit. (It works, I swear!)
Goal for this week: Attend Yoga Class tonight!
Weight for today: 203
It's so great you've gotten past your mindset. I am so nervous about taking the exercise classes at my gym - like everybody is going to say "look at the fat girl trying to lose weight - that's so weird." More likely they will be saying "look at that overweight girl trying to lose weight by taking this class. Isn't that great!" Duh.
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