Is This What Motivation Feels Like?

Today I woke up at 6:30 am which is kinda odd to me since I love my sleep. I woke up right away and started laundry, cleaned up, even made myself breakfast at home... All before work. Now, if you know me this is very rare that I get up before 8am to go to work. I don't have to be to work until 9am. And even then I am late. I hate being late to things but for some reason WORK I am ALWAYS late for no matter how much I try. Today, something different happened... phases of the moon, the red sea dividing, pigs flying... whatever it was I feel very proud that I have done so much today before work and don't feel sluggish one bit. Very energetic - feels kinda off but right at the same time.

Last night I stocked up on veggies and fruits to start making a few fresh juices for the week. The Fat, Sick & Nearly Dead movie has inspired me in a way. I figured with protein shakes, juices, big salads, yogurts, nuts... that I would be good to eat healthy for the next 2 weeks. Might even shoot for a goal of eating better until Christmas. You know, as time frame for motivation. Cause it has been way to long since I have ate like a perfect bandster.

If I can keep myself getting up early on the days I don't go to the gym... which would be only 2 week days. I could make a huge difference in my work out schedule and motivation. I think if I am eating the right foods, get plenty of exercise, and not over sleep... I could feel this great (or better) everyday. You are what you eat right? If I eat good then I will feel good. Seems logical.


For some greatness to God, I am down 2 pounds and I didn't really try that hard. I just have stopped eating out as much. For awhile there, I was eating out like an old habit that made me 230 pounds. Not good one bit. Now I am mentally back and determined. I gotta run with it... I gotta stick to it... I gotta be accountable for my food choices. I have the working out part down but eating right is a must. They work hand in hand.

To top things off I am still pretty pissed off at myself that I had creeped back into the 200's so easily. It came back so easy after I had worked hard to get the last bit off just to get into the 190's.

Now today I am 204lbs. 
Not proud of that number one bit. 
Not proud that I am 2 years out of being banded and I was at -32 now at -26. 
That isn't where I want to be and nor should I be.
Come on... 2 year I have only lost -26 pounds when I should be down to my goal weight of 150lbs.
Motivation Folks, Motivation!


Goal for this Week: Make some really great tasting fresh juices.

Weight for today: 204lbs.

Fat, Sick & Nearly Dead

I highly suggest everyone to watch a documentary called "Fat, Sick & Nearly Dead". Sounds like some kooky crazy film but in all actuality it was pretty informative and has changed the way I see what I am eating. My little light bulb is a bit brighter.

Granted I love to eat bad foods but now I am seriously thinking about busting out my juicer and at least having one homemade fresh juice per day or a few times a week.

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Joe Cross (right)  juicing up on the road with his
battery powered Juicer!
Now who says you can't eat right while traveling!

100 pounds overweight, loaded up on steroids and suffering from a debilitating autoimmune disease, Joe Cross is at the end of his rope and the end of his hope. In the mirror he saw a 310lb man whose gut was bigger than a beach ball and a path laid out before him that wouldn't end well— with one foot already in the grave, the other wasn't far behind. FAT, SICK & NEARLY DEAD is an inspiring film that chronicles Joe's personal mission to regain his health.

With doctors and conventional medicines unable to help long- term, Joe turns to the only option left, the body's ability to heal itself. He trades in the junk food and hits the road with juicer and generator in tow, vowing only to drink fresh fruit and vegetable juice for the next 60 days. Across 3,000 miles Joe has one goal in mind: To get off his pills and achieve a balanced lifestyle.

While talking to more than 500 Americans about food, health and longevity, it's at a truck stop in Arizona where Joe meets a truck driver who suffers from the same rare condition. Phil Staples is morbidly obese weighing in at 429 lbs; a cheeseburger away from a heart-attack. As Joe is recovering his health, Phil begins his own epic journey to get well.

What emerges is nothing short of amazing – an inspiring tale of healing and human connection.

Part road trip, part self-help manifesto, FAT, SICK & NEARLY DEAD defies the traditional documentary format to present an unconventional and uplifting story of two men from different worlds who each realize that the only person who can save them is themselves.

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Check out the movie and let me know what you think!

http://www.fatsickandnearlydead.com/index.html

Rent it on Netflix for free this thanksgiving weekend.

Silk Number

It has been a few weeks since I have last posted. There has been a lot going on in the personal life but not much going on in my band life. 

I have stuck to the new work out routine until the time changed and I dont feel safe running in a dark street anymore. I have to find a way to still be able to fit in my hill run. It isn't as easy to do it after work like before. I get out of work when it is dark now. If I had more motivation and wasn't such a sleeper I would do it before I went to work. That I would really have to try to do. I think I would fail within the first week. 

It has been a crazy past 2 weeks. my brother got married and we have had lots of family in town for more than just the weekend. All week. Granted they aren't high maintenance but we just ate out more. The whole deal with my brother's wedding that really bothered me was that I wasn't in it. I had helped out with the invitations and the signage - even hosting the rehearsal dinner. Since I was kinda hurt about it - I figured to make up for it I would get even more dressed up. I hoped that people would of kept the focus on how I looked versus 1. Not being in the wedding and 2. "When are you and your boyfriend going to get married" question. I swear every person I spoke with that night asked. It was very annoying. No need to ask when they already know we are on that path. So all in all my plan of looking great only went so far. The master plan didn't work....

.. or maybe it did? I felt great. Got a good buzz on. Danced. Visited with both sides of my family. Had lots of fun.

I may be struggling with my weight loss but the band has allowed me to fit in this size 14 satin number and feel as radiant as it is blue. I would of never worn it before. Cheers to that!

In my last post I told you I was going to wear that purple dress... It fit perfectly BUT it was to casual. So I went out and found the blue dress. The purple dress I wore to the rehearsal dinner. After the dinner, I ended up ripping the side seam area chasing after my neighbors dog that ran across our busy street, in the rain. The things we do for cute fluffy dogs... It was pretty funny but now I have to learn how to sew it.

Goal for this week: Drink lots of water and find time to fit in the new hill run.

Weight for today: 205