Today I am offically removed from the Revision program through Kaiser. I feel sad but relieved at the same time. I just know that mentally having a bypass done, well I’m just not right in my mind for it. Not that I don’t want / need to loose weight because you know I do BUT I am truly afraid of going from throwing up with a lapband to dumping with a bypass. I just feel like right now my body and mind need time. And yes, I did cry about it. Many times in fact.
Today also is my first day of trying something new. A day by day program of using TruVision system. It sounds super simple of 2 pills twice a day. It is supposed to give me energy and curve my eating/cravings. I just need that little boost to get going. I believe in my heart it’s the right time for all of these choices.
In addition to dropping out of the revision program, I’m on a waiting list for a series of nutrition classes. I guess that it has become a popular class therefore it has a waiting list of 2-3 months. From the description it may be something very useful to do. Risk my comfort zone level. Eak!
Has anyone ever heard of Fatty Liver? Welp, my surgeon mentioned after my surgery that my liver seemed large. So I asked my primary care doctor to re-read my bloodwork and past tests to see if something was wrong. In my trip to the ER before there was a notation on my MRI that I may have possible fatty liver. Yeah thanks fuckers for not telling me. So with me persuing info about my own body to the doctor I now have to look into this issue. An ultrasound , fatty liver scan and a 2 hour fatty liver class. Now are on my calendar.
Please lord, help me as I need to loose this weight so it doesn’t turn into anything else.
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