Cruise Re-Cap

Had a good time, but I won't do a cruise again. It was just such an odd feeling not being able to go any where I wanted. I still feel like I am rocking back and forth from being at sea. If you like your trips to be planned for you - then it is a perfect thing for yah. We went from Long Beach > Catalina > Ensenada > back to Catalina but not dock > Long Beach.

I loved Catalina. I loved Zip Lining. I loved hanging with my mom. I loved laying out on the day at Sea. Oh, I also loved the Chocolate Melting Cake.

The first day I ate way too much and couldn't sleep. So I took it easy with what I ate the rest of the trip. I had a small breakfast and skipped lunch the rest of the week. I never made it to the gym while on the boat. I did manage to walk the track one day.

I weighed myself yesterday and I only gained 2 pounds! THANK GOD! Thank god, it wasn't more. For not exercising and drinking pina coladas and eating high calorie meals.... I am surprised I didn't gain more. Now back to my routine of eating healthy, small portions and working out. time to eat like a thin person :-)

Goal for this week: GYM GYM GYM

Weight for today: 201.4

11 Months

Wholly shit! Has it really been this long since I was banded? One more month and it will be a YEAR! Wow How time flies by. As of today, at my 11 month date, five new and exciting things are:


1. Under 200 - not by much but it does look like I am in ONE-DER-LAND
2. In a size 14 designer Jeans
3. Keeping up with my working out even with working long hours
4. Feeling restricted (finally)
5. Had my period after many months of not having it


I really feel like I am kicked back into gear and really trying to make better choices. I have felt in a slump and struggling. Not seeing any loss other than in inches. This is very frustrating but one must focus on moving forward and no regrets. 


A list of things I want to work on for the next month:


1. Vitamins
2. Going back to spin class
3. Drinking more water


Off to my cruise for one week - hoping to get a lot of relaxation and feel refreshed when I return. Maybe even a little tan.


"Goals are the fuel in the furnace of achievement."


Weight for today: 199

Today Is A Good, Good Day

Today there are too many words that can explain how I feel.... 199.6!!!

Karma is a Bitch

I speak from experience on this one because last night I had a sweet tooth after dinner. I knew I didn't have much of a selection. I even though I had just ate my dinner I reached for some soy milk and some chocolate syrup.

One, I drank right after eating which I shouldn't of done.
Two, it was chocolate syrup.

I couldn't remember the last time I had even ate any of that syrup - or how long it had been in the fridge. Why was it still there? Anyhow, I mixed the two and enjoy a cold chocolate milk. It hit the spot. Well in the middle of the night I woke up in hives, burning and itching! That choloate syrup was the only new thing I ate in the last 24 hours. So I went to check out the bottle... EXPIRED... and not just by a bit... it was by YEARS! I don't even want to tell you how long, lets just say loooong ago it should of been thrown away.

Talk about some serious instant Karma. Damn, that band sure knows how to teach me a lesson. Even worse... what is in chocolate syrup anyhow.... check this out!

I Love Shopping

The worst part of getting banded is the LOVE I have for shopping now. I used to hate shopping because I could only shop within certain stores. It was a very frustrating and limited. But now I have such a selection in most stores, that I just want to buy stuff just because it fits. This can be so BAD! So now I have to narrow down what I want and what I need.

I have recently purchased three amazing and well fitting dresses. (Banana Republic and Shabby Apple) I think that these will last me awhile since they can be worn even if I loose more weight. The way these dresses fit are perfect now but can only get better even at 10 pounds less. I purposely bought smaller sizes but surprisingly they fit just great. I guess I under estimated how small I am. One of the dresses is even a size 12! I can't remember the last time I wore anything close to a 12. This dress is the wrap around black dress similar to the one below. It looks more Mad Men-Retro than this photo. (I love Retro and Rock-a-Billie) I am wearing it today.



I just went today to finally take in my three pairs of pants to be tailored. They are all size 14's. I will get them back at the end of the week... just in time for my cruise. I also got a cute grey short sleeve with tie jacket - size large ... and a dark purple cotton sweater - size Large... perfect for fall! (Maybe my boobs will get smaller so I can fit into a Medium one day!)

I am very excited to go on my cruise. I have never been on one before. Kinda of nervous to be on a huge boat in the middle of the ocean but more nervous to be with my family who do not know I have been banded. For some reason, one of them found out I was in the hospital last year but not sure what for. I a sure it will be brought up sometime during this week. If so I am not sure what to say... I did have ammonia that week so I guess I will just say that. It honestly isn't any of their business. I am also nervous b/c I have a small scar on my stomach and plan to wear my bathing suit - which means my scar might be seen. It is pretty light and small... but you never know. The last and final reason I am nervous... What do I eat on a cruise ship where I can still indulge but not gain any weight? Anyone who I have ever talked to that has gone on a cruise states they ate the whole time and gained 7 pounds! I don't think zip lining and doing a wine tour will keep me the same weight. Maybe I might have to explore the gym on the ship.

Have fun in Chicago you B.O.O.B.S. ladies!

Goals for this week: Be good on the cruise

Weight for today: 200 (why there you are, I have missed you two hundie)

Recharged + Ready To Go

I can not lie.... to my surgeon anymore! I gave him the printouts from my Tap&Track iphone app. It allowed me to give a summary of what I have ate this last month. It is a great purchase since I use it and I have learned a lot from tracking what I eat. If I am honest with myself and him, I hope that the pounds will start to drop. I have been going up and down thru these 4 freaking pounds. I am just fed up with it. So I printed my log out and handed it off to my surgeon. He was actually pretty excited about it. He loves technology. And the fact I have been logging my food intake. granted he didn't like how I ate M&Ms... but i listed it! We talked more this time before he decided that I should get a little fill. He stated that I am almost there. So a little is all I needed. I think I am not quite at 10cc's but between 9 and 10. I think at 11 it would be fully closed? I don't want that. I had the fill late yesterday so I have only ate soup and eggs. I have to pay attention to hunger. first and foremost. Going to see him really helps recharge me and refocus myself.

I also needed some new motivation for the gym. I have felt pretty bored about going so I needed to switch up my workout. I got a new pair of shoes. New Balance Women's True Balance Toning Walking Shoes!

They are so comfortable and they actually work. Damn the toning shoes look like they wouldn't do much but my calfs are hurting only wearing them 2xs. It is the most expensive shoes I have bought. They are worth it so far... I mean they are really light weight, comfortable and if it helps tone my backside - then it will come full circle. I guess you aren't suppose to wear them other than to walk and everyday use, but I have ran in them.

I also downloaded the iPhone app Couch to 5k. Three times using it and i have kept up with it. I even ran a bit further on my 3rd day versus my 1st day. It is 9 weeks of training. I think I can do it.

Goal for this week: Pay attention to hunger

Weight for today: 201.8

All Warm and Fuzzy for B.O.O.B.S.

I am sending clothes to the women of B.O.O.B.S. since I am unable to go to Chicago. If no one wants the clothes then please feel free to donate to the clothes drive in Chicago. I also donated $50 to the 5k Team for Susan G. Koman Fund.

I just wanted to give you a heads up as to what I am sending via Stephanie.... I am sending a variety of sizes and sending only the good well kept clothes. This is from my second set of cleaning out my larger clothes. So I hope you enjoy....



black skirts
grey shinny skirt (one of my favorites)
grey jeans (one of my favorites)
red bebe sweat pants
7 pattern shirts
1 brown tie shirt
1 super cute blue stripped shirt
tan sweater with zip up
3 cocktail rings

Thanks Stephanie :-)